Hectic Race...

I'm not exactly sure what the "race" I'm talking about is but it sounded prudent.

I'm really tired.  I'm glad the season is over here in Daytona but it's from Season to a bag of new things.  There are extensive maintenance lists to make, haunted houses to build, electronics to create, database applications to write for the park, software to upgrade, hardware to upgrade, meetings to schedule, community programs to build and much, much more.  Sometimes there just aren't enough hours in the day to accomplish everything.  By day I am working at the park and in the evenings I take the calls from the park that are needed and the rest of the time I'm working on little side projects, clients I can't shake (some going back to 1995!!) or don't want to shake and trying to sneak in some time with my girlfriend or a little gaming.  There are just only so many hours in the day to take care of things that just need to get done.  

Now, here comes the perplexing side of this... everyone wants me to take time off and "enjoy myself".  The first problem with this scenario is that I haven't done that in years and I don't know what I would do if I did.  I honestly couldn't sit here right now and come up with anything to do.  I could always reorganize my music collection or work on my DJ skills.  I could maybe even pick up the Tuba I put down all those years ago.  It's hard to believe that at one time I was considered by some to be "accomplished" in music.  The last time I picked it up I still sounded good but my technique was in the toilet.  It would take me years to get back to where I was and take even more years to compete with the caliber of the guys I'm hearing come out of college these days.  ... But back on that train of thought that just ran away...  I could go see my parents and run into the brother I have never been able to figure out or maybe it would cause me to find a way to pick a fight with my parents about how they handle him and his "situations".  That sounds fun, or not.  

I'd like to travel but haven't really been able to set aside any sizeable sum of money over the last 5 years to really do anything that I'd want to do anyway.  I'd love to cruise over to the Mediterranean and enjoy the sights.. but that's out of reach.  Richard recommended I hop a boat over to the Bahamas for a weekend and just sit in the sun and splash in the water.  I could do that here, but why?  I wouldn't relax.  I would be thinking about what was left behind here to come back to.

Besides, none of that works -- I have a dog.

Speaking of dog, my poor little lady has a heart murmur that the puppy docs are looking into.  Ultimately it will be the end of her but I don't like thinking about that.  That dog is one of the best dogs I've had.  I may post some pictures of her at some point.

I will try to write more often.  There is some release to it so we'll see if I can just blog and be normal.

j